Last week, I received an email from tumblr informing me that my blog had turned four. I was in disbelief that my longest relationship had been only four years and was with an online blog. Nevertheless, I decided to commemorate this milestone by scrolling back through time to see how much I have grown over this passage of time. Much of what I saw brought back memories and raw emotions. For example, the time when I went to show my best friend from high school something funny on tumblr in my favorites, only to have a huge penis with a bulging vein pop up instead. Mind you my friend is straight. It made me laugh remembering this, but also made me sentimental. I was so hard on my friends and nagged them for the littlest things, including accusing them of being immature. In reality, I was the immature one. I was so juvenile that I couldn’t even see, let alone acknowledge, that they not only had accepted me to the point where they laughed at the penis instead of judging me, but cared for me when I went through my troubled phases. They went so far as picking me up at night, calling me hourly, and even allowing me to crash at their houses when I fought with my family. I never appreciated them like I should have. I was an asshole. So I’m sentimental because it turns out I had amazing friends, I just didn’t know it. I’d like to believe I’ve changed a lot, and grown into a better person today. But, I’m sure I will be saying the same thing in four more years when I get another email from tumblr.